The little things

Today a friend saw me and asked, you've lost a lot of weight haven't you?' Instead of saying 'yes, and I have xyz more to go', I just beamed and said 'yup'. I am almost at my goal weight- I've lost 36.8lbs since Sept 17th.

I'm so close, but still have some go.

2.8
1.0
2.2
1.4
2.2
0.0
5.4
0.4
1.4
2.8
2.0
2.2
0.0
1.6
1.2
2.8
3.0
0.0
2.2
0.2
2.0

There are some zero loss weeks, some huge loss weeks- and really, its hard to know that those small numbers add up to such a big thing but they do.

A different kind of family

Andi was buried today. Now, I won't do the 'survivor thing' and pretend she was perfect or that we were incredibly close. Neither are true. But she was a part of my life and a part of our family in a very different way. She was a friend, and was someone who impacted my life. Since her cancer diagnosis over 18months ago, I have thought of her & prayed for her almost every day. Before my son was born, I used to wake up in the middle of the night and lie awake praying for her and her family, for hours. After my son was born, I did warfare intercession (does such a thing exist?) during my TaeBo workouts believing that somehow God was going to heal her body. I carried her with me, in an almost tangible way- unlike anything I've experienced and in a way that defied reason.

She died suddenly last week. Nathan was at the hospital for a few hours. It was a shock to all of us who love the family.

Today as I wept at her funeral, I felt like a sister had died. I looked around that room and saw that many felt the same way.

Cinderella

I promise, I'm not actually a SCC fan in the truest sense- but I really appreciate his thoughtful lyrics. I feel I have a Cinderella of my own.

Cinderalla
By Steven Curtis Chapman

She spins and she sways to whatever song plays,
Without a care in the world.
And I'm sitting here wearing the weight of the world on my shoulders.
It's been a long day and there's still work to do,
She's pulling at me saying "Dad I need you!
There's a ball at the castle and I've been invited and I need to practice my dancin'
"Oh please, daddy, please!"

Chorus:
So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone.

Verse 2:
She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "DAD the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancin'
"Oh please, daddy , please!"

Chorus:
So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

Verse 3:
But she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowin' and tellin' us all they had planned
She says, "DAD the wedding's still six months away but I need to practice my dancin'
"Oh please, daddy , please!"

One more time

I should take a hint, but I'm determined to prevail against this blogging nightmare. What a history of words I have, but alas, nothing to show for it except this completely empty blog.

It's my 3rd.

The first one was a series of emails errors on my part that left me locked out of my very own blog. The second one was actually thriving- daily entries, even comments from strangers, but then due to an unexpected server change, it was gone.

So foolishly, I try again. ;-)